Long time — December 1, 2017

Long time

My husband asked me last night if I’d written for my blog recently. As you can see, it’s been a while. It’s been 3 months. What can I say, life is happening. I now have a 7 month old. I feel like I need to pinch myself. Still blows my mind that I have a son and that he’s already 7 months! As for me, it’s a daily–no hourly challenge to stay present. I find myself jumping ahead to think through pumping sessions, feeding times, and future milestones/transitions and how it all works. There’s so much “they” tell you and so much “they” don’t.

Being a parent is an awesome responsibility. With it comes a constant knot in your stomach that asks all day long “am I doing the right thing?”

Then there’s the pure joy you get when your kid smiles at you. Nothing can compare.

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adjusting — September 1, 2017

adjusting

Life changes after you have a baby. I’ve spent 37 years of my life without a child and then everything changed. EVERYTHING. It’s incredible and challenging all at the same time.

Before I had a baby, I was a daughter, sister, friend, and wife. “Mother” has been added to that list. Amazing. But the definition of those former terms has changed. I’m not the daughter I once was…now I’m a mom so I lean on my mom for something new, parenting advice. My sister is no longer just my sister, she’s now an aunt to my child. I still have friends and my friends still have me, but now my baby trumps all interactions with them. Being a wife has changed the most. Marriage changes after a baby. It’s tough remembering how to be a partner to your significant other when this child is the center of our world. It takes work, but work worth doing.

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15 — August 1, 2017

15

So the tater tot is 3.5 months old. People always say “time flies”, but it’s a little too fast for me. He is growing so quickly. I love seeing him thrive, but a small part of me wants time to stand still. Some milestones:

  • size 2 diapers
  • smiling and laughing (the best)
  • picking his head up
  • creeping (crawling on belly)
  • outgrown all newborn clothes
  • mommy got mastitis (no fun)

That last one just happened. Nursing is the best but continues to be challenging especially now with the infection. Hoping/praying it heals quickly. My tot has been pretty patient with me. Dylan is our little miracle man and watching him grow and change every day is such a gift.

changing times — June 10, 2017

changing times

I can’t believe it’s already the 10th of June. Hard to imagine going back to work, but I’ll be doing just that in a few weeks. It’s going to be tough leaving my little tot, but so relieved that he’ll be in good hands, my husband’s. It took some number crunching, soul searching and praying to come to this decision, but we’re so grateful that our son will be raised by us. Hubs becoming a full time dad and freelance designer/consultant is a step out in faith. We know God will provide. However, change – all this change: becoming a parent (baby arriving early), having surgery (unplanned c-section), hubs leaving his job, and me going back to work is weighing on me a bit. It’s all flying by so fast and it’s so hard to believe that baby D will be 2 months old next week! I’m still exclusively nursing and hope to continue when I go back to work (pumping). It’s a challenge I’m determined to tackle and hope that God will continue to provide in that area as well. It’s such a gift to nourish your child. As challenging as it is, I never thought I’d enjoy it so much, but I really do.

How do you cope with change (good and bad)? What do you love and hate about it?

time flies when baby cries — May 28, 2017

time flies when baby cries

I can’t believe Dylan will be 6 weeks old on Monday. I guess time flies when you’re not sleeping much. We’ve had a few longer nights, but for the most part we wake up at midnight, 2-3am and 5-6am for diaper change and feeding almost every night. We had one night where he slept for almost 5 hours. It was awesome, but when you’re nursing you have to wake up regardless to pump.

I learn, fail and grow every day. Parenting is hard. Nothing you hear or read can fully prepare you for it. It’s also the most rewarding experience I’ve ever had. Although I’m not spending as much quiet time with the Lord reading my bible and writing in my journal, I feel God carrying and sustaining me daily. The other night was tough. Dylan had gas and I tried giving him gripe water. He ended up choking and then spitting up. It was scary and resulted in very little sleep. Poor Dylan. Poor us. The next morning I had planned on going to a breastfeeding class and was worried that if I went I’d collapse from exhaustion. But I’m so glad I went because it was great. I got to spend time with a friend and learn more about feeding my baby while feeding my baby. That day was very fulfilling and productive. We must have done 10 loads of laundry. God gave us the strength to get through.

Due Date — May 11, 2017

Due Date

SoĀ today is my due date, but the boy decided to come a bit early šŸ™‚

Introducing Dylan Thomas:

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My water broke on Holy Saturday and he arrived the day after Easter. It was the best 35 hours of my life. Bringing this kid into the world is something I will never forget. It feltĀ surreal. I was emotional, excited and terrified. IĀ stalled out at 7cm and eventually they decided a C-section was the best way to go. So here he came, 6lbs 12oz and 21in long. He was beautiful. I cried as they showed him to us through the sheet and then placed him on my chest. He is our little miracle man.

Dylan just turned 3 weeks old and every day hasĀ been an adventure. We had a jaundice scare, our first visit to the ER and lots of nursing. Nursing has been the hardest part for me. It’s so hard to know if you’re feeding your kid enough and if you’re doing enough for them. I’ve already had a few mini breakdowns on days where he cluster feeds. But all in all, it’s the best job in the world. I definitely question whether or not I can keep it up. It’s exhausting. But God gives meĀ strength, minute by minute and I hold on to that.

turtle time — April 9, 2017

turtle time

Here’s the lowdown on week 35:17796188_10155606236478797_2564839688165443975_n

  • cramps
  • crying (happy, sad, doesn’t matter)
  • peeing at least 3 times a night
  • hemorrhoids
  • can’t reach my toes
  • swollen feet, ankles, fingers
  • fuller face
  • I want to eat the world

I am officially a waddling woman. I also feel like I have a lot in common with turtles that have been flipped over on their shells. I have to roll myself out of bed, the car, couch, etc. I call it “turtle time!” On the positive side, I’m getting excited to meet our baby boy. God has given me the gift of the present and staying in it is what’s keeping me calm. I’m also grateful to my husband for all the prep he’s been doing. It takes a huge amount of stress off me and the baby. Baby…it’s crazy to think that we only have a month to go. Amazing…

 

31 — March 9, 2017

31

17103271_10155513212843797_466283029471324603_nThirty one weeks today! Can you believe it? I’m so grateful. This baby boy is growing and I just pray he continues to grow until his due date and that my body holds out šŸ™‚ I’m feeling pretty good. I have the typical stuff: tired, occasional swelling, and peeing often. Other than that, I can’t complain. I’m just amazed by God’s goodness.

We had our shower this past weekend. Another reminder of how loved this baby and we are by our family and friends. This baby is blessed.

Tomorrow, we attempt to see our little tot…again. It’s our third attempt at the 4D ultrasound. The past 2 he’s been hiding his face in my uterus. Little stinker. Hopefully he’ll cooperate this time.

The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.– Psalm 28:7

Hot Mama — February 8, 2017

Hot Mama

So hubs and I just got back from our babymoon to St. Augustine. It was great. Short, but great. We walked around, explored, ate/drank yummy food, visited with old friends and relaxed. When we got home, we had an extra stay-cation day and decided to get massages. I’ve never had a massage before. I scheduled a prenatal one for me and a Swedish for the hubs. I was looking forward to it. When we got there, we had to fill out paperwork. I sat down in the lobby and didn’t realize that the sun was perfectly positioned while hitting the back of my head. As I finished up my paperwork, I could feel the heat on my back. I got up and handed the woman at the front desk my clipboard and started seeing stars. I was blacking out! I had to lay across 2 chairs while they got me water and a wet towel for my forehead. I’ve always had issues with the heat, but never this fast and INSIDE! I think it might have been a combination of heat, dehydration and being pregnant. Five minutes later I was fine, but a little embarrassed and shook up from my little episode. Overall, the massages were awesome, but I didn’t expect a life lesson beforehand. Lessons learned: take it easy, stay hydrated, humble and know that God’s got this and us šŸ™‚

100 — January 30, 2017

100

Twenty five weeks and five days today. One hundred days to go! Unreal. Just unreal. God is good! I have my moments, crazy thoughts and feelings, but God continues to carry us. I have my glucose test on Wednesday. Was a bit nervous about it, but giving it over to God. He’s got this and us.

On a fun note, I bought some maternity jeans and a new bra yesterday and they are heavenly. SO comfortable. Hubs was so patient as I tried on almost everything in the store. Only to leave with 2 things. I also attempted to paint my toes yesterday. I was successful, but it was a bit difficult. Belly is getting big and it’s challenging to bend over. Looks like I’ll be getting pedis from here on out šŸ™‚

Grateful for every day our baby boy grows and I feel his kicks. I’ll be grateful for every last one of these 100 days we have left before we meet our little gift. Praying he’ll come when he’s ready and no sooner or later. It’s all in God’s perfect timing…

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