So the last time I wrote, it was the day before our consult. We got through it, but it was not what we expected. We thought we were going in there to discuss our transfer, but instead we were introduced to another option. The other option being to hold off on the transfer and bank more embryos. I was really caught off guard. I think we both were. I was overwhelmed with both options and of course cried while we met with him (not my first time). He said, “You have a problem with your personality. You’re emotional and controlling.” Tell me something I don’t know!

So all week has been a roller coaster of emotions around this decision. Do we do it or do we wait and go through this again? We made the choice today. We are doing the TRANSFER! So tough to arrive at this decision, but we did. We are grateful to all our family and friends that listened and imparted their wisdom and advice on us. We’re blessed to have both options and either one is not wrong. So, we’re taking a leap of faith and doing it! I’m terrified and excited.

My anxiety is still flying high from emotions and hormones galore! My current issue: grocery store check out lines. Man, no fun. But! I realize my stress has to come out in some form or fashion and this just happens to be it right now. This too shall pass…For those of you on this infertility path, I applaud you and appreciate you. This stuff isn’t easy and I’m so honored to be able to share this journey with you all. It’s everything to know that I’m not alone in this.

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