So there are 7 stages of grief: shock or disbelief, denial, bargaining, guilt, anger, depression, and acceptance/hope. I think I’ve experienced about half of these. Grieving over this failed IVF cycle has been hard. Massive ups and downs. My depression is usually accompanied by severe anxiety which is not a fun combo.

But today has been a good day. A turning point. It’s been a little over a week since our beta (blood test) and perhaps time is starting to heal. Heal and let go. Let go of feelings of failure, pain, anxiety and depression. I’m trying to let go of all of these. Feel them and then heal them. This is my prayer.