Twice as Grateful — August 25, 2016

Twice as Grateful

Yesterday we arrived at the clinic nervous, anxious and not sure what to expect. We had one normal embryo we were hoping to transfer and another we had to re-biopsy. They were running behind schedule so we had to wait. Finally, they called us back and placed us in a holding bay. As we sat there, my bladder filled (has to be full for transfer) and the curtain opened. The new doctor introduced himself and proceeded to say the best news I’ve heard in a long time. He said we had 2 healthy embryos to transfer. Hubs and I were over the moon. Took all my strength not to burst into tears right there. As I prepped for the procedure, I couldn’t stop smiling. We were going to transfer TWO embryos. We barely had one the last time. This was our second full IVF cycle and to have 2 babies to transfer was such a blessing.

Today starts our TWW (Two Week Wait) and I’m officially PUPO (Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise). You learn all these fun acronyms in all the awesome support groups out there. I hope to enjoy this time of hope and growth. Whatever the outcome, I am forever grateful for this experience.


Transfer Troubles — August 15, 2016

Transfer Troubles

Today I had my pre-op appointment for our second IVF transfer. Doc came in and did the probing. He had another doc shadowing him. Nothing like a party around your who-ha. As he’s doing the exam, he┬ámentions my fibroid.We have been moving forward with this transfer instead of pursuing surgery. We were hopeful and relieved, but after today, I’m discouraged and wondering if we’re doing the right thing. I’ve been banking on this working. I wasn’t going to try and protect myself and not get my hopes up. I did that last time. Why should I do that again? I know what grief feels like, but today left me feeling like I’m going to be heartbroken again. Doc was not encouraging at all, but we are proceeding with the transfer. We need a miracle. I know this. Conceiving is a miracle in itself – IVF or not. I shared all these feelings with the hubs and as usual, he talked me down. Thank the Lord for him.

As my sweet friend, Kari reminds me, “Proclaim it in the name of Jesus!” Well as troubled as today left me, I’m here proclaiming that this is going to work and surrendering it Him.

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