I turn 40 years old today. I started the day with a lapse in memory which made me feel old and resulted in tears. Can you tell I’m struggling with this birthday?

I’ve been slacking on blogging lately. I’ve been super busy on the work front, which is a total blessing. But—I want to be sure I don’t lose what has helped heal me. God has a lot in store for me and I am grateful for this time I’ve had with my family. It’s been hard financially, but we’ve had amazing support from family and friends.

The number 40 is teaching me is that I’m free to be who I am. Free of the fake and phony. Free of all the falsehood that’s in this world. I plan on cherishing this year for what it is.