J&J — October 24, 2019

J&J

Thursday morning. Watching/listening to Julie & Julia as a click away at my work. This movie reminds me of this blog that I started several years ago during the onset of my fertility journey. It helps me to release the day-to-day nuttiness of this world. It allows me to connect with all of you. To relate and be relatable.

This movie also reminds me of my love of cookbooks. I collect them. I decorate with them. I also work my way through them as Julie does in this movie. I don’t do every recipe, but I do start at the beginning. I cook the ones that appeal to me and my family. I save the ones that are successful. The criteria for successful is whether or not I would want to eat and make it again. I have a pinterest board of my confirmed delish recipes here. These are my craves and favs.

I hope you all have a wonderful rest of your week. Remember to take the time to find inspiration and connect with those that you love.

Wellness Wednesday — July 10, 2019

Wellness Wednesday

I started my day with a nourishing video call with a new friend. He’s a wise man that’s been on a similar path as me. We both struggled with infertility and now he’s made a business out of it. He offered me a few free sessions and man did I love it. It was powerful tapping into the past and where my anxiety was learned. I love his philosophy: “Anxiety is not how we’re wired, it’s learned.” He believes that if we work on ourselves, the fertility journey can be traveled a little easier. So true.

Continuing on my wellness track, I did some yoga this afternoon. I love this girl and her videos – this is the one I did today: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aKsu112bzHE&t=0s

To end the day, I’m doing this. I’m trying to get more consistent with blogging. I really enjoy it. I’m also joining my online bible study group shortly. Connecting with others really is healing. How are you practicing wellness today?

Mother’s Day — May 12, 2019

Mother’s Day

This used to be a hard day for me. Still is in some ways. I remember thinking how cool it would be to announce that I’m pregnant on Mother’s Day. But year after year I wasn’t. At church this morning they prayed for all the women (new moms, moms of teens, moms who have lost children, caretakers of moms, desiring to be a mom). Tears rolled down my cheeks as I held out my hands to receive the blessing. Our fertility journey was a hard time in our lives and motherhood holds it’s own challenges. But I’m grateful for the following:

  • Being with my mom this morning as we ran to the bagel store and coffeeshop before anyone else was awake in the house.
  • Seeing my 2-year old run out of his room with a Lionel Richie t-shirt with my Mother’s Day card in his hands.
  • For church. The message this morning was phenomenal! https://subsplash.com/discovery/messages
  • Floating in the pool with my neighbors, mother-in-law, son and husband.
  • For the long bath I took as my son and husband napped this afternoon.

I’m also grateful to be blogging/writing again. This is freeing. I hope all the women out there know how cherished and special we are. We are in this together. We all need connection and each other. Not having a child doesn’t mean you’re not a mom or nurturer to someone. We are loved!

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15 — August 1, 2017

15

So the tater tot is 3.5 months old. People always say “time flies”, but it’s a little too fast for me. He is growing so quickly. I love seeing him thrive, but a small part of me wants time to stand still. Some milestones:

  • size 2 diapers
  • smiling and laughing (the best)
  • picking his head up
  • creeping (crawling on belly)
  • outgrown all newborn clothes
  • mommy got mastitis (no fun)

That last one just happened. Nursing is the best but continues to be challenging especially now with the infection. Hoping/praying it heals quickly. My tot has been pretty patient with me. Dylan is our little miracle man and watching him grow and change every day is such a gift.

Due Date — May 11, 2017

Due Date

So today is my due date, but the boy decided to come a bit early 🙂

Introducing Dylan Thomas:

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My water broke on Holy Saturday and he arrived the day after Easter. It was the best 35 hours of my life. Bringing this kid into the world is something I will never forget. It felt surreal. I was emotional, excited and terrified. I stalled out at 7cm and eventually they decided a C-section was the best way to go. So here he came, 6lbs 12oz and 21in long. He was beautiful. I cried as they showed him to us through the sheet and then placed him on my chest. He is our little miracle man.

Dylan just turned 3 weeks old and every day has been an adventure. We had a jaundice scare, our first visit to the ER and lots of nursing. Nursing has been the hardest part for me. It’s so hard to know if you’re feeding your kid enough and if you’re doing enough for them. I’ve already had a few mini breakdowns on days where he cluster feeds. But all in all, it’s the best job in the world. I definitely question whether or not I can keep it up. It’s exhausting. But God gives me strength, minute by minute and I hold on to that.

turtle time — April 9, 2017

turtle time

Here’s the lowdown on week 35:17796188_10155606236478797_2564839688165443975_n

  • cramps
  • crying (happy, sad, doesn’t matter)
  • peeing at least 3 times a night
  • hemorrhoids
  • can’t reach my toes
  • swollen feet, ankles, fingers
  • fuller face
  • I want to eat the world

I am officially a waddling woman. I also feel like I have a lot in common with turtles that have been flipped over on their shells. I have to roll myself out of bed, the car, couch, etc. I call it “turtle time!” On the positive side, I’m getting excited to meet our baby boy. God has given me the gift of the present and staying in it is what’s keeping me calm. I’m also grateful to my husband for all the prep he’s been doing. It takes a huge amount of stress off me and the baby. Baby…it’s crazy to think that we only have a month to go. Amazing…

 

31 — March 9, 2017

31

17103271_10155513212843797_466283029471324603_nThirty one weeks today! Can you believe it? I’m so grateful. This baby boy is growing and I just pray he continues to grow until his due date and that my body holds out 🙂 I’m feeling pretty good. I have the typical stuff: tired, occasional swelling, and peeing often. Other than that, I can’t complain. I’m just amazed by God’s goodness.

We had our shower this past weekend. Another reminder of how loved this baby and we are by our family and friends. This baby is blessed.

Tomorrow, we attempt to see our little tot…again. It’s our third attempt at the 4D ultrasound. The past 2 he’s been hiding his face in my uterus. Little stinker. Hopefully he’ll cooperate this time.

The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.– Psalm 28:7

Hot Mama — February 8, 2017

Hot Mama

So hubs and I just got back from our babymoon to St. Augustine. It was great. Short, but great. We walked around, explored, ate/drank yummy food, visited with old friends and relaxed. When we got home, we had an extra stay-cation day and decided to get massages. I’ve never had a massage before. I scheduled a prenatal one for me and a Swedish for the hubs. I was looking forward to it. When we got there, we had to fill out paperwork. I sat down in the lobby and didn’t realize that the sun was perfectly positioned while hitting the back of my head. As I finished up my paperwork, I could feel the heat on my back. I got up and handed the woman at the front desk my clipboard and started seeing stars. I was blacking out! I had to lay across 2 chairs while they got me water and a wet towel for my forehead. I’ve always had issues with the heat, but never this fast and INSIDE! I think it might have been a combination of heat, dehydration and being pregnant. Five minutes later I was fine, but a little embarrassed and shook up from my little episode. Overall, the massages were awesome, but I didn’t expect a life lesson beforehand. Lessons learned: take it easy, stay hydrated, humble and know that God’s got this and us 🙂

100 — January 30, 2017

100

Twenty five weeks and five days today. One hundred days to go! Unreal. Just unreal. God is good! I have my moments, crazy thoughts and feelings, but God continues to carry us. I have my glucose test on Wednesday. Was a bit nervous about it, but giving it over to God. He’s got this and us.

On a fun note, I bought some maternity jeans and a new bra yesterday and they are heavenly. SO comfortable. Hubs was so patient as I tried on almost everything in the store. Only to leave with 2 things. I also attempted to paint my toes yesterday. I was successful, but it was a bit difficult. Belly is getting big and it’s challenging to bend over. Looks like I’ll be getting pedis from here on out 🙂

Grateful for every day our baby boy grows and I feel his kicks. I’ll be grateful for every last one of these 100 days we have left before we meet our little gift. Praying he’ll come when he’s ready and no sooner or later. It’s all in God’s perfect timing…

6mo — January 22, 2017

6mo

Six months! It’s such a huge milestone for us. I was waiting for the 24 week mark. It feels amazing that we’re here. I feel grateful for every day this little miracle is growing inside me. There’s even gratitude for the constipation, heartburn, swollen ankles, and my ever growing tight tummy. They’re all wonderful experiences that I’ll take and say “thank you, Lord!”

With every kick I feel my heart swell. God did this. He is doing it. And as I write this, my fears creep in and remind me that we still have a ways to go and so many things can go wrong. But God has carried us the whole way. No matter what we endure, He will never abandon us.

“When you are grateful, fear disappears and abundance appears.” ― Anthony Robbins

 

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