Working Wednesday — September 12, 2019

Working Wednesday

Today was a busy day. Work was consistent, but I still found myself wandering down What If Road. Ever been there? It’s like you’re grateful, but wonder what if this or that happened. What if I never get paid for this work? What if I’m just not good enough? What if that tragic thing that happened to them happens to me? What if…

It’s interesting being in a place where you are so reliant on God that you can’t do anything else but pray and trust. I was in my small/bible study group tonight and the perfect analogy for this was brought up. My friend said, it’s like you’re a kid, holding your parent’s hand, waiting to cross the street. That child trusts that parent to take them across. There’s not a doubt in their mind that they will get across that street with their parent’s help. Pure trust.

God is asking me/us to hold His hand and trust that He will get us to the other side. The other side of sickness, fear, doubt, unemployment, anxiety, depression…{insert your mountain here}.

And calling to him a child, he put him in the midst of them and said, “Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. (Matthew 18:2-4 ESV)

Windy Wednesday — September 5, 2019

Windy Wednesday

So as you may or may not know, I live in Florida and this week it was all about hurricane Dorian. Schools, roads, bridges, libraries, and businesses closed. It’s been the big event here. All over the news and my neighborhood. We were all prepared to get a direct hit, but thanks to God for turning this monster storm to the North East. It truly was an answer to prayer.

It’s a great reminder to me that in the midst of our personal and seasonal life storms, we can do our best to be prepared, but ultimately, we have to trust and pray. Actually let me reverse that – PRAY and TRUST. We have to pray with the intention and belief that God is listening and working on our behalf. No matter the outcome, when we believe that His will is done, we can be okay with it. It’s not easy, but necessary in our walk of faith.

I’m currently on a faith walk. Work is scarce and finances make my head spin, but I know He is our provider.

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fitness friday — July 19, 2019

fitness friday

Worked out with my neighbor today. I am proud of myself! First of all, working out is not my idea of fun. I’m not one of those people that feeds off others energy at the gym. I usually just want to get through my workout and leave as soon as possible. I really just want to fit in my pants. That’s my goal. I know there are many other benefits to working out, but I tend to lose site of them when I actually have to do it.

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So we went, we did about 20 minutes of cardio, weights and lots of talking. The talking was probably my favorite part. Lots of stuff to be grateful for today. Exercise, hubs working, swim with my tot, and it’s Friday! Enjoy your weekend my friends. It’s gonna be a good one.

what if wednesday — July 18, 2019

what if wednesday

I tried Zumba today. To say I was uncoordinated would be an understatement. As I attempted to shake my booty to the beat and not fall down, the mind game continued…What if I couldn’t get through all the routines? What if I had to stop and therefore embarrass myself? I’m a pro at the What If game. The only thing is, nobody wins at the What If game. There are only losers.

Lesson learned: I need to let go. I need to trust. I need to stop striving. God knows I’m not perfect and yet He loves me anyway. Which means I need to practice loving myself and allowing life to unfold as He leads the way. Despite my inner dialogue, it was a blast. I went with three of my neighbors. I can’t wait to do it again.

Fri-YAY — July 12, 2019

Fri-YAY

Friday’s aren’t always fun for me. Coming from the corporate world, I did adopt the Friday fun day mentality, but now that I’m a stay-at-home mom and freelance graphic designer, I still appreciate Friday, but for other reasons. I don’t work for the weekend anymore (sometimes I have to work on weekends now 😑). However, I am trying to set some healthy boundaries. Such as:

  • Check-in on computer, but don’t respond to emails unless necessary.
  • No looking or applying for jobs.
  • Start an inbox/to-do list for Monday vs. tackling it asap.
  • Slow down.

The last one is for every day, but I especially don’t like to feel rushed on the weekends. They are meant for rest. God gave us 6 days to get our stuff done. Time to take a breath and be.

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Wellness Wednesday — July 10, 2019

Wellness Wednesday

I started my day with a nourishing video call with a new friend. He’s a wise man that’s been on a similar path as me. We both struggled with infertility and now he’s made a business out of it. He offered me a few free sessions and man did I love it. It was powerful tapping into the past and where my anxiety was learned. I love his philosophy: “Anxiety is not how we’re wired, it’s learned.” He believes that if we work on ourselves, the fertility journey can be traveled a little easier. So true.

Continuing on my wellness track, I did some yoga this afternoon. I love this girl and her videos – this is the one I did today: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aKsu112bzHE&t=0s

To end the day, I’m doing this. I’m trying to get more consistent with blogging. I really enjoy it. I’m also joining my online bible study group shortly. Connecting with others really is healing. How are you practicing wellness today?

one year ago… — July 5, 2019

one year ago…

ONE YEAR AGO:

  • I was starting a new job. A job I took over another. I left a life of “security” and moved on to what I thought would be the next and final work chapter of my career. But it wasn’t meant to be. I was let go 9 months later.
  • My son wasn’t walking. He was cruising, but no full walking on his own yet.
  • I was celebrating 1 week in my new home with my husband and son. It was home, but not really, not yet. I love to nest, but wasn’t really able to due to starting my new job so quickly after the move.
  • I had just had an awesome 4th of July celebration with my family and in-laws up the street. A big reason we moved here when we did was them. They moved here 2 months prior. It’s so nice having family close by.
  • I was still in the honeymoon phase. Life’s changes are fun at first, but eventually you remember. You remember what you’ve moved from and what’s to come is new and uncertain. It’s scary. It took about a month before my rose colored glasses fell off my face.

TODAY:

  • I’m self-employed and a full time mom. It’s nuts. I struggle almost daily with “oh no” thoughts, but God does provide.
  • My son is now running circles around me. Lord help me!
  • I’ve been in my new home for over a year. Man how time flies. How did that happen? It took quite some time to settle in. Still settling in now, but it’s definitely feeling more like home every day.
  • We celebrated the 4th like crazy yesterday! Went to a friend’s house, ate platters of food (almost puked), swam (almost sank), slid down water slides, & watched fireworks. It was a blast. Gatherings can raise my anxiety a bit, but once it passes, it’s great to experience the joy of people and the spirit of the holiday.
  • The honeymoon phase has officially come and gone. I’ve replaced my rose colored glasses with multi-colored/focal ones. Every day brings new adventures and challenges. I see them. I’m grateful for them. God is guiding me on this faith walk…

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which way is up? — May 24, 2019

which way is up?

I’ve been reading the Undaunted Devotional by Christine Caine and today’s question is:

When has it felt like life turned you upside down?

Good question. My first thought is, losing my job made me feel like my life was turned upside down. I’ve never lost a job before. Being laid off is not fun. But oddly enough, I also felt like my life was being turned right side up at the same time.

I would describe myself as a worker bee. I think it’s in my blood. I like to work. However, as I get older, I’m slowly realizing what a toll it can take. Not slowing down. Not taking care of myself. Not finding balance with work and life.  I’ve put a lot of my self-worth in what I do and how I do it. God is breaking this thought pattern…and I’m grateful for that.

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