freedom@40 — October 9, 2019

freedom@40

I turn 40 years old today. I started the day with a lapse in memory which made me feel old and resulted in tears. Can you tell I’m struggling with this birthday?

I’ve been slacking on blogging lately. I’ve been super busy on the work front, which is a total blessing. But—I want to be sure I don’t lose what has helped heal me. God has a lot in store for me and I am grateful for this time I’ve had with my family. It’s been hard financially, but we’ve had amazing support from family and friends.

The number 40 is teaching me is that I’m free to be who I am. Free of the fake and phony. Free of all the falsehood that’s in this world. I plan on cherishing this year for what it is.

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which way is up? — May 24, 2019

which way is up?

I’ve been reading the Undaunted Devotional by Christine Caine and today’s question is:

When has it felt like life turned you upside down?

Good question. My first thought is, losing my job made me feel like my life was turned upside down. I’ve never lost a job before. Being laid off is not fun. But oddly enough, I also felt like my life was being turned right side up at the same time.

I would describe myself as a worker bee. I think it’s in my blood. I like to work. However, as I get older, I’m slowly realizing what a toll it can take. Not slowing down. Not taking care of myself. Not finding balance with work and life.  I’ve put a lot of my self-worth in what I do and how I do it. God is breaking this thought pattern…and I’m grateful for that.

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